I truly appreciate the sweet comments on yesterdays post. I wrote more for my own accountability then anything. As I stated in yesterday's post
"I'm in a unique place right now, one I've never been in before. Where as before I would be feeling angry, frustrated, annoyed at myself for my unhealthy weight today that's not where I am. I understand that this is something that I brought on myself. I understand that my goal is health not numbers. I understand that I can only workout 3 days a week but I can watch what I eat 7 days a week. I understand that food should not be a reward. I understand that I'm thankful that I'm blessed and I like my life. I'm thankful that His mercies are new every morning!"
I am fine with the way that I look, and happy with life. Sometimes I feel tired just from the pace of it all but I have vacation days and when I feel too overwhelmed I can take a day off. When the pace of life is constantly on the go it's easy to overlook eating healthy. I realize that the numbers don't define who I am, and that they are not what make me happy.
I'm tall, 5'9. This means that I will never be 120 pounds. I have a healthy range and currently I'm not in the healthy weight range. I'm actually 18-20lbs outside the healthy weight range. Usually I get inside the healthy weight range, I meet someone and then I gain weight and as I said yesterday instead of a journey it feels like a huge circle that keeps repeating. I truly want to break that circle. I want the journey to move forward, not keep circling back.
I'm basing my numbers off information from my doctors, who I've asked the question to, and not the trainer who I met with Saturday. I received the same information Saturday that I've received from my doctors.
Life is ongoing and striving for perfection is unrealistic and self defeating. I would like to be healthy, and that means moving the journey forward and out of the giant circle. My happiness is not numbers on a scale, or a dress size. I like my life, I'm blessed. I hold myself accountable because it's not ok with me to wake up 5 years down the road and be 50lbs outside my healthy weight range. Part of liking yourself means that you take care of yourself. Keeping active, eating right, help me stay healthy and able to do all the things I want to do!
Happy Tuesday!!!
